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I totally forgot to post this here, too. OTL

I am so far behind on my comic. If only I could wrestle up more energy after work to actually sit down and draw a new page. That'd be awesome. But meh. I have to work during the summer break, and I have a right to whine!

For that sake, please, ladies and gentleman, vote on that poll over there ->

Day 6 - BED

Failed comic-style fav book doodle -

"The girl who circumnavigated Fairyland in a ship of her own making"

Yes, it's a long title.

Day 5 - Starting to lose it

I'm writing this in the middle of a drawing block in it's puberty. It's going to get a lot worse now and doors will be shut down noisily in heated arguments with myself. 

Day 5 - My best friend Lydia (even though it doesn't look like her, and yes, she is that hot 8D)

 Meh. I like to curl up in my bed and don't do anything. Thats really relaxing. This summer is a waste of time. D: I'm FREEZING.

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This is the latest page, I just finished it today.

I gotta focus on drawing more pages away from school from now on, since the summer break will eliminate the opportunity of drawing when I'd have nothing better to do. Oh gosh, I cannot figure out why I decided to work through the whole summer. This is going to be horrible.

BUT HEY.

I just booked a 12 days trip to the greek coast of cyprus in autumn. Awesome snorkeling time lies way ahead of us. Waaaaay ahead. /sob





Snorkeling. Pfffrt.

What a word.

Being poor is the new diet.

I would rather buy plants and fish for my aquariums than being well-fed throughout the month. The only thing that holds me back is that I know that I will whine about not having enough money when my boyfriend hears it. And that he'll give me his "Are you fucking kidding me?" look. :D "Deeeeear... you spent all your money on aquarium stuff."

Buhuhu, but I LIKE spending all my money. :(

I hate being an adult where you have to pay for bills in the end of the month. And where you have to keep track of your contracts.

Damn you internet-marketing, for making me believe that everything that your company says is true! You're just too convincing, with your nice graphic designs and your blending effects. Robert isn't at all that easily convinced. He went to look for a new electricity provider right after I whimpered about how my new one isn't at all as cheap as it seemed to be, when I received their contract confirmation.

Anyway, because of that "accident" I have to pay 70 Euros in the end of this month. (they scheduled the bill for 30 June. Awesome guys, reaaally awesome. Usually I have about 50 € left in the end of a month, you fuckers. Now I have to live off of bread and butter to pay your fucking bill, if I want to spend some money on my aquarium-hobby.)

And no, I have not complained enough yet. I had my (oral) English exam on Monday and I got out with 83 %. Meh. If I just had noticed the backside of that dialogue sheet a bit earlier. Then I hadn't have to improvise the rest of the sheet and the discussion. But what's done is done. I just hope the written exam goes a bit better.

Jonas texted me that he'll be back to school after the summer break. But he still didn't tell me why he was absent in the first place. Fucker.

Hadn't have much motivation to draw in school on friday. But I doodled some half-naked Korra stuff. (I was so close to drawing porn actually, but I was too lazy) Still frustrated about how no one of my friends knows the series and actually likes it enough to discuss about it. There's so much I want to rant about, and so many things which are interesting in more than one aspect. /sob. forever a fangirl.

 

part 1

Yesterday, when I woke up, I had the feeling I had wasted another weekend, so I had the female urge to get up and actually be productive. I've been lazy and unproductive four more hours after I first had that feeling. 6 pm I started to clean my room, finally put the fresh clothes that I had standing around in boxes blocking the whole room since weeks in the closet and moved everything of music, pictures and other work related files into the external harddrive I got last christmas and never touched ever since then.
Then I stuffed my poor tiny laptop with the whole files I pooled. And it's still not even half full. :| I thought 1.5k songfiles and 5k pictures should be enough already, but I guess I've always been a clean and boring person. lol
Usually I mess around with the computers system when cleaning my PC in a cleaning bloodrush because I keep deleting really important files for booting by accident.;;; At least my pictures and music and all the other important stuff are save now. hah.*win*

I made plans for starting to play ro again christmas holidays because I miss the fandom. (It's pretty much the only fandom I've ever had.)
So does anyone know any decent low-rate server?
Not much lower than 7x tho, I still have a life. Lol. I'll put up the shoutbox again later today, so feel free to suggest one.

Some Old RO pictures I didn't consider good enough to get uploaded. But now I don't have anything else to post, so suck it bitches.







My hair was all messy and long since a few days, so I decided to cut it after all. I tried not to cut too much tho, since I wanted to let it grow. It'll grow eventually. D:

My cam sucks.

I miss smoking.
But it'll only be for a month lil' Hali. Hang in there.

Addicted? ...psh.

energy drinks > coffee

It felt so nice not being watched at work for once. Usually I've had one of my supervisors watching me 24/7, now I'm unwatched for like 23/7. *win* And I can do all the stuff I like, designing Flyers, Websites, etc.

So my parents have been gone for two weeks. They're on a vacation trip in Egypt. You know, sun, ocean and always warm. I'm so damn jealous. It has been rainy and cold since days straight. Part of why I hate Germany.

Other reasons are:
- German people always sound angry even if they're not
- the language is really hard to learn and to pronounce, because everything just sounds so stiff
- German language mostly consists of words we stole from other languages such as English(!) and French (I'm not saying other languages don't steal from eachother, but they don't mix it as heavy as Germans do)
- Oktoberfest. wtf?
- German Songs must be forbidden
- late German Musichistory overall is hilarious, I mean, Schlager ... ? (dictionary says it's 'hit songs' translated, but w/e)
- English is just way cooler. Bro. 8|

I'm fine about living here, as long as I can whine about it. :}


My boyfriend is far far away on a military base in Japan. His work keeps him busy 24/7 with useless stuff that's wasting his time. This week for example, he's on a parking lot around the corner of his usual working place training useless stuff. The best thing about it is tho, that this training lasts until Saturday. Before that, he can't even go to his room and sleep in his bed, even if they have to be not far from it.
This is such a huge waste of time. I have tommorrow off and I was happy I could spend it with him. :/ Now I'll more rather spend my day sitting around and maybe sort of cleaning before my parents come back tomorrow.

*yawn* Wasting my day off, too.

Someone (Lydia) has to give me an idea what to draw. :|

School and work are boring as shit and I still feel overstrained.
I just can't handle standing still while everything around me is moving.

I know, it's much fun to judge about other peoples lives. But it's even more fun to complain about my own live. I don't have enough stuff in my real life that's worth ranting about, it's the same routine over and over again.
Leaving at 7 am and coming back home at 7 pm.
Leaving when it's dark and coming back in the dark.
Going to sleep after eating, chatting and watching some Grey's Anatomy.

A little fight with one of the few friends I got left actually seems like something new and exiting, wich is a sad thing to think about. The only two people I ever talk with anymore are my best friend and my boyfriend. They consume the 3 hours of freetime I've got left per day. Thus I barely ever draw anymore. And if I do, it's something I'm just not satisfied with. The faces always look the same, I never do anything special with the positions, it just looks stiff as hell. I really would like to practise more, but when? at work I can't just get my sketchbook out and draw whenever I got nothing to do. So I mostly talk to my boyfriend on msn if he's online or just browse lame websites instead.

Every Monday and Friday I have to attend vocational school (so today, too). Actually relaxing because I'm at home early. If it wasn't only two days a week but a whole week in a row.
It's really annoying, we gotta study about office organization and we gotta deal with so much unorganized and random shit all of the time.

I want christmas holidays.

[excuses]
I've been busy, uhm... I've been-- working! anddd ... vocational school. And-- stuff. REALLY BUSY OK.
[/excuses]

...
Fine I've been playing RO. But It's kinda fun even though it really sucks balls.

Today: Vocational School. We had to do an english test. Ha-ha. I know it's ridiculous.
Although I think I failed. Hard.

Wow, I can't even form one proper sentence anymore. qq I guess I better should start showing stuff I drew. Because thats what we're here for, right?

Riiight.




All the new stuff at first because thats what I can bear the longest time before I fantasize of killing myself then the older stuff.


This is a little something I drew for a friend from vocational school. He's sitting next to me in class and I drew him with the girl he'd like to be with, but he only ever saw her from the distance at the schoolyard. *chokes*

I personally like the blur/vintage look of it. It looks like an old photograph to me, just showing more anatomic mistakes and less emotion than a real photo would do. Lol.




A sketch I've been working on for weeks now, it feels. Only a few minutes of drawing each time I tried finishing it. Never worked. I actually wanted to draw her with a guy holding/fixing her right wrist. But I really couldn't see the other person infront of my inner eye.

I guess Hali just is supposed to stay the only person on this picture. So I'll give up on it except if anyone could name me a good idea for it.




OH DEAR GOD THIS IS SO OLD.
I drew this for an ex-player of PhoenixRO. (he quit meanwhile already) The hair and armor and face sucks so baaaad. But this is just Tegaki E. I don't have to draw good on this.

I have problems drawing lately, because I can't really see what exactly I am drawing. That's why I didn't see how sloppy the vintage photo was done until I saw it on my big screen.
I managed to be stupid enough to step on my glasses when I stayed overnight at Lydias place once. Thus they are broken. And they're not gonna fix themselves anytime soon. (Not until Hermione came to good ol' Brandis to poke them with her magic wand mumbling weird spells and magically fixing the broken glass of them)
So I pretty much wear contact lenses 24/7 and only have like 78% of my visual vaculty left when wearing them. Still better than the 44% I have without anything.

Yay work tommorrow. I wanna stay in bed already. qq
/yawn